daddy's little girl

beberapa hari ini saya sedang sering mendengarkan lagu Bob Carlisle yang judulnya
BUTTERFLY KISSES
every line's so terrible sweet.


"  There's two things I know for sure :
She was sent here from heaven
and she's daddy's little girl.
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night
She talks to Jesus and I close my eyes 
and I thank god for all the joy in my life
Oh, but most of all
For butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer... "


( ... saya teringat Papa jarang -atau bahkan tidak pernah- mengatakan sesuatu hal tentang perasaan sayangnya. mama juga bilang demikian, papa bukan tipe orang yang suka mengatakan sesuatu, tapi Papa adalah penulis yang hebat! kata-kata papa yang sangat saya sukai adalah saat Papa memberi saya ucapan selamat ulang tahun... dari sana saya tau, Papa menyayangi saya... )

" ...sticking little white flowers all up in her hair

'Walk beside the pony, Daddy, it's my first ride.'
'I know the cake looks funny, Daddy, but I sure tried.'
In all that I've done wrong
I know I must have done something right
to deserve a hug every morning and butterfly kisses at night... "

( ... ingat saat Papa memangku saya saat kami naik kuda, atau saat Papa mengajari saya naik sepeda roda dua... dan lalu setelah saya bisa, saya pamer kepada Papa dan dia tertawa-tawa bangga... atau waktu papa memarahi saya dan saya menangis, tapi setelah itu dia menggendong atau memeluk saya... saya tau Papa menyesal... )

" ...Sweet 16 today
She's looking like her mama a little more everyday
One part woman, the other part girl.
To perfume and make-up from ribbons and curls
Trying her wings out in a great big world.

But I remember butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer;
sticking little white flowers all up in her hair.
'You know how much I love you, Daddy,
but if you don't mind, I'm only gonna kiss you on the cheek this time.'

With all that I've done wrong I must have done
something right to deserve her love every morning
and butterfly kisses at night... "

( ... Papa mulai mempercayai saya untuk menjaga diri saya sendiri, saat Papa melepas saya ke Australia tanpa mama atau papa. setelah itu saya SMA di luar kota, benar-benar saya merasa 'dewasa'. memang kelihatan Papa mempercayai bahwa saya akan baik-baik saja, dia tenang... tapi setiap kali saya belum makan atau saya sakit, saya tahu papa sangat kawatir. dia dan mama membiarkan saya benar-benar menjadi gadis yang bertumbuh dewasa, memberikan ruang bagi saya... mencari jati dir saya sendiri... menghormati keputusan saya, dan pilihan-pilihan yang saya ambil... )

" ...She'll change her name today.
She'll make a promise and I'll give her away.
Standing in the bride-room just staring at her.
She asked me what I'm thinking and I said
' I'm not sure-I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl.'
She leaned over...gave me butterfly kisses with her mama there,
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair
'Walk my down the aisle, Daddy-it's just about time.'
'Does my wedding gown look pretty, Daddy? Daddy, don't cry!' ... "

( ... baru dengan 'dia' Papa memberi saya ijin. because of one and another thing, Papa knows how much I love my man... juga pernah suatu saat saya pernah ada masalah dengan 'dia', papa mendengarkan dan menenangkan... melihat gadis kecilnya menangis untuk seorang lelaki selain dia, saya tidak tahu bagaimana perasaan Papa. )

"... Oh, with all that I've done wrong 

I must have done something right.
To deserve your love every morning 

and butterfly kisses-I couldn't ask God for more, 

man this is what love is.

I know I gotta let her go, 

but I'll always remember every hug in the morning 

and butterfly kisses... "

at woodball game, December 26th 2009